Month: September 2003


I definitely don’t feel right about watching friends anymore. At all. But I’ll feel weird if I don’t watch it, because I need to know how it ends. it’s like watching the first 2 1/2 hours of a three hour movie and not finishing it (unless it’s a Lifetime movie).

In the midst of this being disgusted with like every single show on television, I have found one. It’s soooo great. Joan of Arcadia. CBS Friday nights 7pm Central. God appears in various forms to this teenage girl. How great!!! I am so excited and can’t wait for the next episode. FINALLY a decent show on television WITHOUT SEX. And, on a CBS, not PAX tv or something. Ohhh man…



Okay, I am not going to watch Grounded for Life anymore either. Lily wasn’t telling anyone that Brad was her boyfriend because she was embarrassed. And we all know who that reminds me of.

This is really frustrating, so read it out loud…

Ladle Rat Rotten Hut

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Wan moaning Ladle Rat Rotten Hut’s murder colder inset.

“Ladle Rat Rotten Hut, heresy ladle basking winsome burden barter an shirker cockles. Tick disk ladle basking tutor cordage offer groin-murder hoe lifts honor udder site offer florist. Shaker lake! Dun stopper laundry wrote! Dun stopper peck floors! Dun daily-doily inner florist, an yonder nor sorghum-stenches, dun stopper torque wet strainersi”

“Hoe-cake, murder,” resplendent Ladle Rat Rotten Hut, an tickle ladle basking an stuttered oft.

Honor wrote tutor cordage offer groin-murder, Ladle Rat Rotten Hut mitten anomalous woof.

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“Armor goring tumor groin-murder’s,” reprisal ladle gull. “Grammar’s seeking bet. Armor ticking arson burden barter an shirker cockles.”

“0 hoe! Heifer gnats woke,” setter wicket woof, butter taught tomb shelf, “Oil tickle shirt court tutor cordage offer groin-murder. Oil ketchup wetter letter, an den– O bore!”

Soda wicket woof tucker shirt court, an whinny retched a cordage offer groin-murder, picked inner windrow, an sore debtor pore oil worming worse lion inner bet. Inner flesh, disk abdominal woof lipped honor bet, paunched honor pore oil worming, an garbled erupt. Den disk ratchet ammonol pot honor groin-murder’s nut cup an gnat-gun, any curdled ope inner bet.

Inner ladle wile, Ladle Rat Rotten Hut a raft attar cordage, an ranker dough ball. “Comb ink, sweat hard,” setter wicket woof, disgracing is verse.

Ladle Rat Rotten Hut entity bet rum, an stud buyer groin-murder’s bet.

“O Grammarl” crater ladle gull historically, “Water bag icer gut! A nervous sausage bag icel”

“Battered lucky chew whiff, sweat hard,” setter bloat-Thursday woof, wetter wicket small honors phase.

O, Grammar, water bag noisel A nervous sore suture anomalous prognosis!”

“Battered small your whiff, doling,” whiskered dole woof, ants mouse worse waddling.

“0 Grammar, water bag mouser gutY A nervous sore suture bag mouse!”

Daze worry on-forger-nut ladle gull’s lest warts. Oil offer sodden, caking offer carvers an sprinkling otter bet, disk hoard-hoarded woof lipped own pore Ladle Rat Rotten Hut an garbled erupt.

MURAL: Yonder nor sorghum stenches shut ladle gulls stopper torque wet strainers.

For other things like this, go to The Anguish Languish Page.

Today would have been John Ritter’s 55th birthday. He dies on his daughter’s 5th birthday. Which means that her 3rd birthday was September 11, 2001. That girl is going to be so traumatized. ABC has decided to continue John’s show, “8 Simple Rules for Dating my Teenage Daughter.” They will air the first three episodes of the season, with John in them, with a special introduction. The episode following those will be an hour long episode, dealing with the death of his character. I’ve never really been upset over a celebrity’s death before. I think it’s because when I told my dad that John Ritter had died, unexpectedly, he said “He’s my age.” And that just kinda scared me a little. Especially after his heart surgery last year and also the car accident a few months ago.

In response to Sarah saying that it’s refreshing to see that I write about deep things…what am I supposed to do, talk about TV shows?

So Full House is going to be on Nick at Nite soon. I feel so old. I better be married and have kids by the time they start showing FRIENDS.

Speaking of FRIENDS, I’m seeing previews for it everywhere, and I refuse to read them. I want to be surprised. Apparently, only 53% of people think that Rachel is going to wind up with Ross. Let’s use our brains, people…Joey is moving to Los Angeles next year to have his OWN show. NONE of the other cast members will be joining him. NONE. So HOW could he possible end up with Rachel? Huh? But seriously, I really am not watching any reruns. I’ll only be watching the new episodes. And once they end, I won’t watch anymore. I have yet to decide if I will watch the premiere of “Joey” next year. I’m still not watching The Simpsons either. I don’t know if I wrote anything about that in here, but I’m boycotting it because Ned had sex with someone he wasn’t married to. Also, the FRIENDS boycott has lifted the King of the Hill boycott and the Futurama (which has been cancelled) boycott. I am also no longer taking online quizzes, having to do with sex. And I am trying not to say dirty things anymore. Look, I am a completely different person. I love it!

Now, as far as The O.C. goes…I was just thinking last week that I was mso glad there was no sex in it. And then a half hour later, Marissa slept with Luke. Of course. We’ll see what happens. If there’s anymore sex, I’ll stop watching it. Which is sad, because I think Seth is a great character, and if he was real, I’d be in love with him. Go dorky Jews!

American Dreams…Meg let Luke up her shirt last year and JJ slept with Beth. So we’ll see what happens with that as well.

Not much sex happening on The Real World Paris. But I plan on boycotting that anyway, as soon as this season is over.

I’m not going to have any TV shows soon. It’s sad to see that everything is about sex these days. Maybe it’s GOOD that Full House is going to be on Nick at Nite soon. Boy Meets World is pretty wholesome too. And Saved by the Bell. But these are all shows that I’ve seen a million times. There is this new show coming out this season called “Joan of Arcadia.” It’s about this girl who God talks to or something like that (Jason Ritter is in it…I think). That should be okay to watch. As well as this new Eliza Dushku called “Tru Calling.” Where she works in a morgue and can go back in time and stop the people from dying. Early Editionesque. That show prolly won’t have any sex in it either.

I saw Brandon on Saturday. I don’t think he saw me. That’s the second time in two months. Why can’t he go AWAY to school, like normal people?

Clay is going to be on Miss America on Saturday. This is his album cover. It’s so hot. Especially the WWJD bracelet!

And now for some quizzes…

a walk 2 remeber
you are a hopeless romantic!! you love romantic
books and movies you believe in Love at first
sight and think that all things are possible in
Love!! you just like me!

What kind of Romantic are you?
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My inner child is sixteen years old today

My inner child is sixteen years old!

Life’s not fair! It’s never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something’s gotta change. And it’s gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.

How Old is Your Inner Child?
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mad love
You are Casey, from Mad Love. You are fun,
attractive, and sexy. You draw everyone’s
attention because of your outrageous
personality, but you can be emotionally
unstable and easily depressed. Sometimes, you
can be too much of a handful to deal with.

Which Drew Barrymore Character are you?
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music notes and chorus
You’re Chorus. You’re down to earth and have a real
love for the arts. You are true to yourself and
you never try to be something you’re not.

Which extracurricular activity are you?
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The Completely Pointless Personality Quiz
The Completely Pointless Personality Quiz




Eve means “Life-giving.” She was the first woman taken from Adam’s rib. She was the most beautiful woman to ever walk Earth. She and Adam lived in the Garden of Eden, from which she and Adam were expelled after they disobeyed God’s command not to eat of the forbidden fruit of the tree of knowledge of good and evil. Because she violated the only rule in the Garden, she was cursed, and sin came into the world, and it was no longer perfect. She was the mother of all nations.

Which Bible Character are You?
(by *Crazy Dannielle*)

You're From the Moon
You’re From the Moon. This means that you are bound
to be a very caring person to those you love
and even those you do not know.

What Planet are You From?
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Which Rainbow Brite kid are you? By Growing.

Which Salute Your Shorts Character are You?

Take The Test!

Cuddle and Kiss on the Forehead

Cuddle and Kiss on the Lips
You like to be close to your special someone
and feel warm,
comfortable, and needed.

How do you show your affection?
(by *Crazy Dannielle*)

You are…”TWILIGHT”! After a terrible
ordeal of a life, you are finally going in the
right direction. You’re going to move on to
better things…and say goodbye to all the
things that once were and say hello to all the
great things ahead. 🙂

What Vanessa Carlton song are you? (with cool pics)
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Artist: Vanessa Carlton
Album: Be Not Nobody
Title: Twilight

I was stained, with a role, in a day not my own
But as you walked into my life you showed what needed to be shown
And I always knew, what was right I just didn’t know that I might
Peel away and choose to see with such a different sight
And I will never see the sky the same way and
I will learn to say good-bye to yesterday and I
Will never cease to fly if held down and
I will always reach too high cause I’ve seen, cause I’ve seen, twilight
Never cared never wanted never sought to see what flaunted
So on purpose so in my face couldn’t see beyond my own place
And it was so easy not to behold what I could hold
But you taught me I could change whatever came within these shallow days
And I will never see the sky the same way and
I will learn to say good-bye to yesterday and I
Will never cease to fly if held down and
I will always reach too high cause I’ve seen, cause I’ve seen
As the sun shines through it pushes away and pushes ahead

It fills the warmth of blue and leaves a chill instead and
I didn’t know that I could be so blind to all that is so real
But as illusion dies I see there is so much to be revealed
And I will never see the sky the same way and
I will learn to say good-bye to yesterday and I
Will never cease to fly if held down and
I will always reach too high cause I’ve seen, cause I’ve seen, twilight
I was stained, by a role, in a day not my own
But as you walked into my life you showed what needed to be shown
And I always knew, what was right I just didn’t know that I might
Peel away and choose to see withg such a different sight
And I will never see the sky the same way and
I will learn to say good-bye to yesterday and I
Will never cease to fly if held down and
I will always reach too high cause I’ve seen, cause I’ve seen, twilight


I think I am going to make an entry about marriage and relationships.

I decided the other day that I need to go out and buy a garter relatively soon. So that, eventually, when I get married, that can be my “something old.”

To a lot of girls, the engagement ring matters a great deal. Me? Well, I’d be happy, just the same, with a 25 cent ring from the machines inside of Jewel. All that matters to me is who it is that is giving me the ring.

I realise I’m not in a relationship right now, and I don’t have much experience in that area, but I’ve had a lot of time to myself to think about that stuff and I know what needs to happen to have a good relationship.

And I know what my parents did wrong. And I know what NOT to do when deciding who to marry.

I have learned to trust God’s timing. And that I will have a guy in my life when He thinks it’s right. I had to find myself first. I had to make a lot of changes, in order to be happy with myself. Because if I’m not happy with myself, then I can never be truely happy with anyone else, and nobody else will ever be happy with me. I am so thankful for everything I have been realising in the past few weeks, and all the changes I have been able to make for myself. I couldn’t have been ready for a relationship before, no matter how much I thought that I was. But I am glad I went out with Patrick, because there were a lot of lessons that needed to be learned from that. Things I need to know for future relationships.

It is very important to me to not have sex before I am married, and hopefully, my future husband feels the same way. I know that that’s kind of looked down upon, in this day and age, but I don’t care. I know what I want and I know what’s right. It’s what God wants. It’s what I want. Mr Dayton was my first class teacher freshman year and he used to tell us that everytime you’re having sex, outside the bonds of marriage, you’re having sex with someone else’s spouse. And he’s right. He’s so right. Ryan Noah said that if you wouldn’t do it in front of your parents, you shouldn’t be doing it. And he’s right. He’s so right. And maybe it’s too late for me to save EVERYTHING for my husband. I can’t take back what I’ve already done. But it’s not too late to not to do those things again until I’m married. And it’s not too late to not go farther than that until I’m married. I just need to forgive myself for it. I like playing “I Never” and having my first can of pop be almost full, while everyone else is almost done with their third can of pop. It makes me feel good.

I used to feel left out. All of my friends (or what SEEMED like all of my friends) had already had a boyfriend or girlfriend, by the time we were in 8th grade. But I didn’t. And I thought there was something wrong with me. I thought I was a freak because I didn’t have my first kiss until high school. I thought 14 was really old for a first kiss. Now I see that it wasn’t, and I was just stupid for thinking that. I also used to think that it was a contest to see who has kissed the most people. But only recently, have I realised that that is not the case. I’m digusted with friends who are 18 and 19 and have kissed over 20 people. I am VERY happy with my small number. I feel that if I have a small number when I get married, it only means that it took me less tries to get it right!

Abby once said to me, after she an Neal broke up, that if Neal was so great, she can’t even begin to imagine how the great the guy is that God has in store for her to marry. She’s right. I used to think that Patrick was the perfect guy for me. But looking back, I see that were a lot of things about him that made him not right for me. The relationship wouldn’t have worked out. I’m glad it ended when it did. 2 months and 17 days is not bad for a first relationship anyway.

I’m a very impatient person, but I know that I can wait for the right guy, because it will be WELL worth the wait. I don’t need to go out and look. I just need to sit back and wait for one to come to me.

By Phillip and Natalie LaRue

I don’t know if you’re near or far away
But I know that I’m thinking of you today
I don’t know if I even know your name
But I know I’m praying for you just the same
Someday we’ll fall in love
You’ll be mine and I will be yours
Our hearts will be one
And our love will ever endure
And I’ll need you, and I’ll want you
And I’ll find you someday
Then I’ll love you, then I’ll hold you
Then I’ll be with you always
Our love will be so strong and pure
You will make me feel like I have never felt before
You will be perfect only for me
You will make these eyes begin to see
Someday we’ll fall in love
You’ll be mine and I will be yours
Our hearts will be one
And our love will ever endure
Your faith for the Lord will be strong
Even though I know the wait is long
And though I’m young I still believe
That you’re out there praying for me

Somewhere Out There
from “An American Tail”

Somewhere out there
Beneath the pale moonlight
Someone’s thinking of me
And loving me tonight

Somewhere out there
Someone’s saying a prayer
That we’ll find one another
In that big somewhere out there

And even though I know
How very far apart we are
It helps to think we might be wishing
On the same bright star

And when the night wind
Starts to sing a lonesome lullaby
It helps to think we’re sleeping
Underneath the same big sky

Somewhere out there
If love can see us through
Then we’ll be together
Somewhere out there
Out where dreams come true

You Are Ready to Get Married

You’ve done more than dream about the dress and the honeymoon

In fact, you spend a good deal of your time thinking about what makes a relationship work

And from your answers, it looks like you have the skills to say “I Do” and mean it

You’ve dated enough, learned your fair share, and you’re ready to settle down.

Are You Ready for Marriage? Take This Quiz

Find the Love of Your Life
(and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.


Damnit, I am so fucking sick of hearing about girls I know being raped or molested. In the past week I’ve found out about two girls I know being raped, bringing the current (and hopefully permanent) total to eight. Not to mention the five that have been molested. Those numbers are WAY too high! How can guys do that?! I don’t understand. This is what the sentence should be for doing something that shitty…

And I’m not trying to be funny; I seriously think that is what should happen to them.

Okay, the music was really annoying. I’ll admit it.

So, like, I need to take another tap class and CLC doesn’t offer one, so i was looking on this web site that listed local dance studios and one of the ones listed was Skokie Park District. And Skokie’s only 40 mins away, plus I used to live there. But then when I saw that one of the dance teachers there is none other than Mr. Rikki Lee Travolta, I was like “yeah, no thanx.”

So apparently they’re making new episodes of Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles. So I started watching it on Sataurday. Then I realized I’m not a little boy, I’m a critical 18 year old girl with little to no attention span, and the first 30 seconds just did not cut it. It was, in no way, worth my time to wake up at 9:15 on a Saturday morning.

On Sunday I was awoken at about 9am to my loud backdoor neighbours. I wish I wasn’t Jewish, so I could throw some ham at them. HAHAHA!

Hey, it’s September 9th, isn’t it? I just realized that yesterday was EXACTLY 4 years since my first kiss. How bout that.

Okay so we’re up to like 25 super seniors. We need our own color for colour war day tomorrow. Seriously.

I pre-ordered my Clay Aiken cd the other day. I also drove home from Libertyville.

As of tomorrow, my foot is FINALLY better!

Real World is casting right now. I have officially made my decision not to audition. And this decision is PERMANENT. Also, as soon as Paris season is over, I’m going to add it to my list of shows I am boycotting.

Another decision I have made is to boycott FRIENDS after the last episode airs. I don’t condone sex outside the bonds of marriage and if I keep watching it, it’s like saying I condone it. Just like why I don’t like “Your Body is a Wonderland” by John Mayer. I watch it for the plot and for, what little humour the writers have left in them.

So apparently they’re colouring the $20 bill.

You are Bipolar II. Your neurotic hypomania
episodes do not require hospitalization;
however, you would funtion easier with
medication. Your depression is not life
threatening, but definately high enough to
require professional help. Consider medication.

What form of Bipolar disorder are you?
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I feel like a COMPLETELY different person and I love it!!! Ya know how when you’re dirty and you take a shower and you get out and feel clean and it feels good? That’s how I feel right now!! For a really long time, I wanted to die. I wasn’t going to kill myself. But I wanted to die. I wanted to go to sleep and not wake up. But that’s in the past now. EVERYTHING IS OKAY!!!! My glass was half empty, but the water was really old. So I dumped it out and refilled it, and now it’s half full!!

I’m not gonna lie; I got a two on my AP Psych test last year. I opened it like the day after I got it—under diress. I’m not gonna hide it anymore. I have to get over it now, or it’s going to bother me for the rest of my life. That’s why I haven’t mentioned anything about psychology in over a year. I’ve been so upset, I pushed out all the information I took in from that class.

Ya know what else I’m not going to hide anymore? I have BiPolar Disorder. I’ve known that since November of 2001, and I’ve only told a few people. I’m on medication. I can’t be afraid anymore. I can’t be afraid of what people think of me. if anyone wants to run because of this, then they can run. I can’t change this, so I may as well embrace it. If I let myself change who I am because of what other people think, then i’m killing myself. And if I can’t be myself, then what’s the point of being at all? So I’m not going to hide myself anymore. It’s who I am. Period. So I lost a boyfriend because of it. That doesn’t mean everyone is like him. I just have to remember that. And I also have to remember that not everyone is like Brandon.

Change of plans: I’m going to CLC next semester. I need to take ballet and jazz (and tap, but they don’t offer) and music theory. And apparently I have to take piano if I want to take music theory. And this is because I REALLY want to go to Sheridan College in Beautiful Oakville, Ontario. And in order to get in to the musical theatre program (best musical theatre program in Canada), I have to sing an up-tempo song, a ballad, do a monologue, have a dance assessment, and take a music theory test. And Lord knows I can’t dance and don’t know a thing about music theory! That’s the only problem with Master Singers, is that it’s like the only advanced choir anywhere that doesn’t go over that. And Sound and Lights don’t either! So anyway, if I don’t get in, I’ll go to Harper next year (a lot of links today!). I don’t want to get too excited about Sheridan, cuz I don’t want to jinx it. But I’ll say two things: one, it costs $7338.29 US (transfer currency) per year (for three years) and that;s including tuition, materials needed, and housing. And two, check out what the dorms are like and tell me that’s not frickin awesome!

My foot was so almost better! So i took off the Ace Bandage and then it got worse! So now it hurts again! That reminds me of when Ross went to visit Marcel at the zoo and the zookeeper said he was gone. When Ross asked what happened, the zookeeper said “Well, first he got sick, then he got sicker, then he got a little better, and then he died.” Hehe. But Marcel didn’t die! He was filming “Outbreak 2: The Virus Takes Manhattan.”

I actually saw the cast list for Little Shop. Al is not a Meek Shall Inherit soloist, she is ‘Mrs Chang.’ First of all, it’s MR, second of all, they don’t even show him at all, how is THAT gonna work? Matt Markgraf is Mr Bernstein and Jenny Peterson is Mrs Luce. Jimmy is the male understudy. Other people in the chorus: Megan Wittenberger, Shannon Wittenberger, Fris, Erin-n-n, and some chick named Autumn. I think that’s it. Oh, and Patrrick Henning is NOT in it! Oh, and I think Matt Wilson is the plant operator, I think he called dibbs on it.

So there was a problem with my program today, so I wound up just reading for 3rd and 4th period. Three hours, nice. I found a book in the room about teens and Christ. of course I went straight to the love and sex chapter. It said you should start praying for your future spouse. I’m so ahead of the game! I just realized that, myself, last week! At least I know now that I’m not being weird for doing that. It also said that trusting God’s timing with dating relationsips is the hardest thing to trust His timing with. For me, it’s actually the EASIEST!

I’m just going to leave some quotes from my new and improved AIM profile for a new and improved Jami. Haha, I fooled you on that last link, didn’;t I?

“Life moves pretty fast. If you don’t stop and look around, once in a while, you could miss it.” -Ferris Bueller
“In spite of everything, I still believe people are really good at heart.” -Anne Frank
“Everything is okay in the end. if it’s not okay, then it’s not the end.” -Unknown
“Every minute spent angry is 60 seconds of happiness wasted.” -Unknown
“There will come a time, in your life and mine, when we will learn to say ‘thank you’ for closed doors.” -Unknown
“It’s always darkest just before they turn on the lights.” -Anything Goes