Okay, so I am a bad person, and for like the past month, I have been falling asleep before I pray. But last night I was like, okay, I am sick of being a bad person. And I pray for friends, family, and myself. And one of the things I pray for is for my family to stay alive. Well, I decided that maybe I should only pray for my IMMEDIATE family to stay alive, since my Grandpa is having major SOB. And, I was like spacing out for two or three hours in my bed before before I actually started praying, around 6am, or a little afterwards. So I prayed for my IMMEDIATE family to stay alive, and around 6:30am, the phone rang. My grandpa had just passed away. And people say prayer doesn’t do anything. But they are cremating him, so there won’t be a funeral. And, apparently, there will be no official sitting shiva, since all of my Grandma’s friends are either in Florida or dead. And that is what SHE said. My mom told her to look through my parents’ wedding album so she can call everyone and tell them. That’s so sad that we have to look through pics from 24 years ago, in order to keep track of the family. People complain about having to go to family parties, well, i don’t even know my family. On either side. I’ve got two distant cousins that are my age. One on each side. I’ve only met Rachel once, and that was when we were sitting shiva for Papa—when I was in 4th grade. I have no idea where she lives. And Lindsay, I used to go out to Wheeling to play with her when we were little. And then I didn’t see her again til her Grandma died when I was in 5th grade. And then she came here and spent the night. And that was the last time I talked to her. I can’t even name anyone else in my family. I’m not sure if anyone on my Dad’s side of the family is even aware that my Uncle died last year. That is sad.
My Dad wants me to have power of attorney over him, since I am 18 and he has a DNR wish. And if, God forbid something happens to him and he is on life support, he wants me to be the one to tell them to pull the plug. NO!! I refused! It is not MY job to decide when someone’s time is up! I am not God! My Dad is upset, cuz he has to give it to my Mom now. Whatever. I’m not God.
Happy new year! Haha j/k, I won’t leave you with a depressing entry.
Umm we cleaned up a lot over the weekend so the cable modem guy could come. If we can get the kitchen floor and the floor around the table and all of Marni’s crap ON the table cleaned up, maybe Jennie can FINALLY come over and teach me how to play the Sims.
I was watching Driven: Jessica Simpson the other day. And, ya know, I really need to take back anything bad I have ever said about her. First of all, I can’t laugh at the way she cooks, because that is EXACTLY how I am too. Second of all, she doesn’t play along with the whole ‘sex sells’ concept. She doesn’t wear slutty clothes. She waited until she was married to have sex, or even sing about it. I really respect her for that. When I turn 21, if I decide I want to have a LITTLE to drink, I want HER to be my drinking buddy. She can have a couple martinis, and I can have a couple glasses of Manischewitz blackberry wine, and be really spacey together. But no more than two or three drinks a piece. Because we are good girls. But I think that would be pretty entertaining lol.
I had a dream last night that I went to my car and there were finger prints all over the window. There was a huge hand smear and in fingerprints were written Leia, Val, and Dani. And I don’t even know Lei’s afriend, Dani. Which is even funnier. Aww I am going to miss homeroom with those freshmen after next week. But I won’t miss high school!
I dunno why I thought of this, but it’s from two years ago, when we were walking back from lunch.
Torey: Whoa, I just almost fell into the lake.
Jami: What would you say if you HAD fallen in and you walked into class and people asked why you’re all wet?
Torey:…I was baptising people…
So, that episode of Joan of Arcadia that I missed a couple months ago, due to the coverage of the fire in the administration building in Chicago, is going to be on again this Friday. Yay!!
I am not going anywhere for New Year’s tonight. I haven’t done anything on new Years since the lock in at Calvary freshman year, when I saw David Erlandson. Oh, and then last year, Brittany Blackwell and I swore at each other online for a little while before midnight, since we both had resolutions to stop swearing. Good times. Anyway, my resolution is to have a MINIMUM of a 3.0GPA for the rest both semesters this year, wherever I may be in the Fall. I still need to apply to Ball State and do my financial aid stuff.
Happy New Year!
Ja zycze ciebie szczesliwego nowego roku!