So I went to Hawthorn with Shellie last night and spent the night at her house. My intention was to go to
Hell Sears and ask for Robert or Sonny (preferably Robert) and pick out a few pairs of shoes (some from the clearance rack) and purposely ask for the wrong size. And try them on and ask for the wrong size again. And make him think I was going to buy all those shoes (in the meantime he could have been helping out someone else and making money) and then not buy any. And I was gonna do it close to closing time so it would take forever to clean up. So we got there and first of all, they moved the shoe department around the wall. That’s crazy. Second of all, there were two people working there and I had no idea who either of them were. I asked one of them if Robert and or Sonny were working and the guy was like “Who’s Sonny?” And he said Robert was at school. I hate to admit it, but I was disappointed that they weren’t there. Then I went downstairs to leave and ran into Tini. She’s a supervisor now. Good for her. She totally deserves it, since she’s been working there for five years. I feel bad for her. Man I hadn’t really been in there since I quit, which was October 2002. Anyway, I wish I hadn’t gone in, cuz it brought back all these memories that I don’t want.
Before I had a xanga I used to e-mail Brian about stuff that happened (and feel bad for him, cuz I think he may have actually read them all haha. And a lot of them were like…long), so here are my letters about Sears.
June 20, 2002
i got a job. selling shoes at sears grr
July 11, 2002
anyway today at work i met the 2nd biggest fuckhead i have EVER met in my LIFE! well ALL the shoes are in the stock room which is HUGE and it;s REALLY tall. you have to climb ladders and they know i don’t like to. and they weren’t around to do it for me so i had to climb ALL the way to the top and he came up behind me and shook it and then laughed about it. i almost started crying. and how matur ehe is repeating everything i say and then claiming it was ME who was repeating everything HE says. i told him he was projecting and EXPLAINED it to him and he said I was projecting. then 2 hours later told me he HAD taken psych. yeah right, projection is like the 2nd thing u learn. i think i’m gonna call him “jack” from now on. grr
That was Robert btw.
July 12, 2002
so i worked 5 hours today and i spent about 4 1/2 of them talking to this guy tom. like an hour of it was spent talking about guess which subject. yep that’;s right, psych. it’s his minor!oh AND he likes FRIENDS. i was like “will you marry me?” and he was like “yeah of course. when? next week? we’ll go to vegas.” and then later HE asked ME to marry him and said the same thing lol. oh and when he was in hs he was in showchoir (did u know buffalo grove hs has a showchoir?” but tom’s best friend is the guy who shook the ladder. grr
July 15, 2002
oh and another thing about tom. he owes me a TON of money. cuz i’m not on commission yet so i’ve been putting everything under HIS number (and he KNOWS it). grrr. maybe you should come beat him up lol. i’m actually liking robert (guy who shook the ladder) better now cuz he said hi to me the other and tom didn’t. and tom was being REALLY immature. i dunno why i even care it’s not like i had feelings for him or anything.
August 3, 2002
so the other day at work robert didn’t show up and i was happy. but he showed up 2 1/2 hours later. said something that pissed me off so i threw a shoe at him (my medication was worn off…i blame THAT). i missed 😦 my boss saw and laughed. SHE doesn’t like him EITHER. then he announced that he might NOT be quitting afterall. damnit. my boss is mad too. and i checked my sched next week and she keeps scheduling us alone together. what the fuck? i don’t think tom and i are allowed to be alone anymore. there are cameras everywhere and we kept getting in trouble. i’m just glad there aren’t any in the stock room or we’d be in even MORE toruble. he’s quitting next month for school even though he goes to northwestern 😦 i don’t think we’re allowed to work together at ALL actually. well today it was sposed ta just be me and amanda sheffield—boss not there. i got there and amanda was sposed ta have shown up at 3pm and didn’t come at all so i was by myself. sonny and robert were leaving as i was getting there and thought it was funny that i was by myself. it took 4 phone calls and over an hour to finally get someone up there to help me! i got all the money cuz it was one of the managers but it was still hectic
August 5, 2002
so i get to work today and it seemed like nobody was there, so i go into the stock room and hear someone so i follow the noise and there is tom so i was excited cuz we were finally alone again and i try to ask him if anyone else was coming and he cut me off and said “I’M BUSY!” and left. that was really weird..then a few minutes later he comes up to me and almost yelling at me goes “you know that you only put your number in for people you help and not just people you ring up, right?” and he knows i know that. so i’m getting really freaked out cuz i don’t know what is going on. so i go into the stock room to find a shoe for someone and he comes into the stockroom with two shoes. he yells “FUCK!!!!!!!” really loud. then he WHIPS one of the shoes as far as it will go. then he does the same with the other. then he picks up a box full of shoes and whips THAT as far as it will go. i was like holy cow. so i was like “uhh…were you ALONE all day?” and he said yeah. i was like oh okay. and then he was like “i’m sorry for snapping at you before. i found out that regina (our boss) was ringing MY customers up under HER number (she’s not even on commission) and she stole like $20 from me.” regina was there then too and we didn’t get any alone time though. plus he was only there for an hour 😦
September 5, 2002
and tom. ugh. thank God he quit and i NEVER have to deal with him again. i found out that he’s been making up shit about me and talking behind my back. then there is this other guy randy who spent all of saturday night putting me down. he’s quitting in a couple weeks. our boss is gone. i haven’t met the new one yet. ugh robert UNquit though. damnit. i HATE sears with a PASSION and i REALLY hope i get that mystery show thing so i can QUIT sears
October 13, 2002 (this was to TOM)
i quit and yesterday was my last day. just letting you know so u won’t have to worry about working with me over break
October 13, 2002 (this was FROM Tom)
I’m happy to hear that you quit, not because I’m afraid
of working with you, but because that place drains all
the intellect and mental stamina that God gives you at
birth. You’re a real smart girl and I know you can do
better than Sears. All the luck to you in your future
endeavours. Keep in touch. You’re an awesome person and
don’t you forget that.
Hmm well that’s all the stuff from when I was working there. In e-mails anyway. Here’s more.
•I hated when Robert and Sonny were so mean to be that I would cry.
•I hated that Tom wasn’t there to stop them.
•I hated when he WAS there and was almost as bad as they were.
•Going in to get my sched after the Sound and Lights carwash in my bathing suit, shorts, tank top, Tevas, and SOAKING WET and Tom asking me if I was working.
•Getting in trouble all the time because Tom and I were always working alone and talked the entire time and stayed an extra half hour cuz we didn’t clean up until the last minute and then we weren’t allowed to work together anymore. And then after we couldn’t work together anymore, they made it MANDATORY to stay an extra half hour to clean up.
•Making a huge sandal display with Tom and taking a few hours to do it. It wasn’t THAT huge.
•Tom and I hiding in the stock room from the customers and talking forever. Listening to what he was saying, and at the same time, wondering what was wrong with me that I didn’t have feelings for him (even though he didn’t have feelings for me, so it shouldn’t have mattered, but it did, because I am insane), but still wondering what it would be like to fool around with him…or at least kiss him. I am insane.
•Getting written up and docked two points because I called in saying I couldn’t work cuz I had school, cuz Regina is nto all there and scheduled me during school even though I said I couldn’t work.
•Sears only hires people from other countries and Mundelein.
•I wish I had never worked there.
•I wish I hadn’t gone in last night.
•Hating that I was up all night thinking about this.
•Hating that I cried about this.
•Hoping this is out of my system now.
•Maybe there IS something I would want erased from my memory…