Month: September 2006

DEATH

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EDIT: I forgot to mention we now have two pet rocks: Manfred and Chris. Yes, Chris Rock.

Shalom Jami,

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Are you kidding me? I sent them an e-mail asking why they would tell me I’m not allowed to go if they don’t want me to miss out on this incredible opportunity. I also found out that they accept Christians of Jewish descent. Psh.

Danielle decided to move home next year, so I am without someone to live with next year. I have to live off campus, so I have to find someone. I have no idea who to ask. I hope I find someone. I cannot take living on campus another year. I’m so sick of the dorm food.

So if you are one of those people that watches your friends page on Facebook like a hawk, you probably saw that mine says I am in a relationship. And, if you are like everyone else I have heard from, you did not read my About Me section, which explains that I am not actually in a relationship. This book I am reading for family group…last week’s reading really spoke to me. “But God has also made us relational. We have been made to long for others, giving and receiving love and intimacy. It’s just that we have lost perspective. We’ve misunderstood the design. Wholeness comes from God, not from any other relationship or thing or feeling. Don’t get me wrong. Relationships, things, and feelings are great. As a matter of fact, they can be wonderful. It’s just that all by themselves, they will never fill you up. They will never be enough to make you feel whole. Remember? You have been made by God, for God, and apart from Him there will always be emptiness in your soul.” I really need to work on my relationship with God. As much as I like to think I have, I know I have never really put Him first. I’ve always been very bad about that. I can’t even take five seconds to pray before I eat because I’m so hungry. Well that is going to change. I put “in a relationship” on Facebook and MySpace to remind myself. And I’m not looking to date anytime soon so I don’t care about scaring someone off cuz they think I’m in a relationship, and even if I was wanting to date, it wouldn’t matter because this is more important. And this is something I need to change NOW. And I’ve known that for a while, but I’ve been bad with it and I just got hit real hard this week and I can’t put it off anymore. And I feel so bad for not changing it when I knew it needed to be changed. And it’s completely my fault. And I know that.

I also dropped my methods class. I’ll try again next semester. This is the last class I will be able to drop ever or else I will be in summer school summer 2008 ugh. But the papers were stressing me out and I just couldn’t motivate myself enough to do even one of them, so now I have more time to work on my relationship with God instead of arguing with Him about when I’m going to write my papers. And I’ll try again next semester when I’ve fixed my relationship with God. I have also been upset the past week and I dropped my class and all of a sudden I’m happy again. So yay.

Over Thanksgiving break I am hoping to make some videos with Drew. Everyone is always making videos and posting them on Xanga and YouTube and I don’t get to be part of them, so I am excited for this. He wants to make my Life Cereal commercial, and maybe we can do my Subway one too, as well as some improv. Yay so excited!

I am getting sick everytime I eat now. It’s not just dorm food, it’s off campus food too. I don’t know what to do. I can’t go to health services, because they won’t help, and the ER is too espensive. I don’t know what to do.

Tonight we ordered Monicals and they messed up our order. So I called and was expecting nothing, but they actually sent us the correct food at no extra charge, and the manager said he would get it to us ASAP and if he couldn’t find anyone to bring it, he would bring it to us himself. And it made me happy. Yay for nice people.


You Are A Realistic Romantic


It’s easy for you to get swept away by romance…

But you’ve done a pretty good job keeping perspective.

You’re still taken in by love poems and sunsets

You just don’t fall for every dreamy pick up line!

Matthew and Adam got me hooked on The Office. Even though last night’s episode wasn’t very funny. If you have never seen this show, you should. I’ll give you one reason why:

“I can understand killing your best friend after a bad fight, that is totally legitimate, but killer her three kids too??” -A girl in my family group. And I’m pretty sure she wasn’t joking either.

So now this person that I live with is no longer pretending to be my friend. Instead, she is just ignoring me. She will come home or leave and say hello or goodbye to whoever is in the room and address them by name, to make it known she’s not talking to me. Well, whatever, if she wants to act like a 12 year old then that’s her problem.

Everyone I live with is going somewhere for Fall Break next month, so I will have the suite to myself for three days.

Also, Kristina is moving out next week. A spot opened up in her sorority house so she’s moving there. And I am going to get stuck with a crappy roommate. I can’t wait to live off campus next year. That plus the dorm food is not my friend.

I randomly got an IM from Drew the other day. I can’t remember how many months it’s been since last we talked, but the thought didn’t even cross my mind that I would hear from him again. Although that has been the pattern. At least I wasn’t the one saying we should start talking again. Anyway, he IMs me and says “I still hate you, but how are you?” Lol. And not long after that he said he misses talking to me. Well I was watching his videos on MySpace and this one is so amazing it just had to be shared:

Get this video and more at MySpace.com

Ya know I really can’t stand people pretending to be my friend when really they’re not. That’s something I’ve had to deal with as long as I can remember, but I thought I had gotten away from it when I came to school here, but I guess I was wrong. I shouldn’t have to deal with this, especially from someone I live with. Fortunately it is someone that is moving out at the semester, so it could be worse. From now on I am just going to assume that nobody from Chicago is my friend (with very few exceptions, and I know who they are). It’s really sad, having to go through life not being able to trust anyone.

L’shana Tovah to all my Jewish friend.

I have food poisoning. Christy and I ate some sketchy burgers from Taylor and now we’re payin for it. I drank some gingerale and I will be fine. I had already decided I’m not going to church tomorrow, so I will get to sleep in.

It’s official: I am living off campus next year. With Danielle. I’m so excited. I fell in love with the most amazing apartment next to Brittany Ridge. Two bed/two bath, washer and dryer in unit, looks brand new, walk in closet (not that I need it), the rooms are huge (there’s room for a queen sized bed and a lot more room left over still), $295 a month per person. I showed it to Danielle. She likes it but thinks $295 is a bit much so I told her we will look at other apartments too. But any other apartment is going to run around the same price and will only have one bathroom, no washer and dryer, smaller rooms, smaller closets, and will look very lived in. I’m sure we will wind up in this apartment. Well I hope so anyway.

Nathan and I went to the JCC in Mattoon for Rosh Hashana services. It’s reform, so I wasn’t expecting much, but it’s better than nothing. The services were completely DEAD. And the few songs I knew, they changed the tune, including the Shema. There was one other girl there from Eastern who has been to services before and she and I just looked at each other. I figured out it was Nathan’s first Rosh Hashana service when I said they will probably cancel Tashlikh because of the weather and he said they will probably have it inside.

Also, I had the worst challah ever ever EVER. The rabbi is only 22. There were about 20 people there last night and 15 today. Last night the rabbi asked the few students that were there if we are all reform. I said I’m Messianic and he didn’t even bat an eye. I’m sure he has no idea what that is. After we left, Nathan said he was surprised I said I’m Messianic (even though he said the same thing, but only because I had said it) and I asked what I should have said and he told me I should have said ‘regular Jewish.’ I said I tried that last week and it didn’t work out very well.

The only psych class I actually WANT to take is Crisis Intervention, but you have to have 20 psych hours before you can take it, plus they only offer it in the spring. You only need 18 hours for a psych minor, and by the time I’m done with it, I’ll have 19 hours, so I would need to take an extra three hours just for one class, which is ridiculous, but, long story short, the woman who teaches it turns out to be Jewish and she was there and told me to come see her and she’ll let me in next semester, even though I won’t have enough hours. Awesome!

Christy was making fun of me because I said I don’t want to put a ceramic plate on the shelf above my bed (where my head is when I sleep), because if we have and earthquake while I’m asleep, the plate will fall on my head. And she was making fun of me because we’re in Illinois and we don’t get earthquakes here. Right, remember THIS? And here is the article about it, if you scroll down. Anyway, then today Trish said we’re due for a big one and they are thiniking it will be in 2008. And I was thinking, if it’s September or after, I won’t be here for it, but then I remembered California has big earthquakes, so I won’t get away from them haha. Also, we wound up not having any bad weather here this weekend. We barely even had any rain.


You Belong in Summer


Energetic, creative, and very curious about the world…

You’re not going to let anything hold you back, especially a cold day.

Whether you’re chilling out at the beach or partying all night, you live for the warm weather.

And here’s my third favorite commercial ever:

NEVER in my 21.5 years of living have I heard of a tornado warning in the city of Chicago, IL. This is crazy!!! It looks like all of the tornados are going to bypass Coles County today. Tomorrow, however, is another day, with more tornados expected. I’m supposed to leave in less than a half hour to go to Rosh Hashana services in Mattoon (more on this later). If the sirens go off before then I’m staying home!

I must be crazy for posting this. In my defense, I fell on my head when I was a baby…

For some reason the audio wouldn’t upload so here it is:

If you play them both at the same time it sort of looks like it has been dubbed in a different language lol. Also, it was a padded bra, in case anybody is wondering. Haha.

Transcript:

DANNY. It’s a better hobby than yours, Mr. Rump!

T-BIRDS. Adlibbing Rump! Rumpy! etc.

JAN. How come you never get mad at those guys?

ROGER. Eh, why should I?

JAN. Well, that name they call you…Rump?!

ROGER. It’s not a name, it’s a title.

JAN. What do you mean?

ROGER. I’m the mooning champ.

JAN. The WHAT?

ROGER. I’m the mooning king of Rydell High.

JAN. You mean showin off your bare behind to people?? That’s pretty raunchy!

ROGER. Nah, it’s neat! I even mooned old Lady Lynche once. Hung one on her right outside the car window. She never even knew it was me!

JAN. Too much, I wish I’d been there! I mean….you know what I mean…

ROGER. Yeah, I wish you’d been there too.

JAN. You do?

ROGER. I SPEND MY DAYS JUST MOONING
SO SAD AND BLUE, SO SAD AND BLUE
I SPEND MY NIGHTS JUST MOONING
ALL OVER YOU

JAN. ALL OVER WHO?

ROGER. OH I’M SO FULL OF LOVE
AS ANY FOOL CAN SEE
CUZ ANGELS UP ABOVE
HAVE HUNG A MOON ON ME

JAN. WHY MUST YOU GO?

ROGER. WHY MUST I GO

BOTH. ON MOONING

ROGER. SO ALONE

JAN. SO ALONE

ROGER. THERE WOULD BE NO

JAN. THERE WOULD BE NO

BOTH. MORE MOONING

ROGER. IF YOU WOULD CALL ME

JAN. UP ON THE PHONE

ROGER. I GUESS I’LL KEEP ON STRIKING POSES
TIL MY CHEEKS HAVE LOST THEIR ROSES

BOTH. MOONING OVER YOU

ROGER. I’LL STAND BEHIND

JAN. YOU’LL STAND BEHIND ME

BOTH. MOONING

ROGER. FOREVERMORE

JAN. FOREVERMORE

ROGER. SOMEDAY YOU’LL FIND

JAN. SOMEDAY I’LL FIND YOU

BOTH. MOONING

ROGER. AT YOUR FRONT DOOR

JAN. AT MY FRONT DOOR

ROGER. OH EVERYDAY AT SCHOOL I WATCH YA
ALWAYS UNTIL I GOTCHA

BOTH. MOONING OVER YOU

ROGER. THERE’S A MOON OUT TONIGHT